I Am Guilty


The past few weeks my mind has been overtaken by the book of Romans. I’m currently going through it with my small group girls and God has been opening my eyes to verses I have read over and over again in a new light.

Unfortunately, before going into this book I had a time of wrestling with God. You know the usual, what He wanted for me vs what I wanted for myself. In the end He won as He always does but it just took a little longer this time by choosing to fight with Him on the matter. I whole heartedly wish I could undo this wrestling match and just let my heart trust God by obeying Him the first time. Regret is a stronghold the enemy uses to keep our minds focused on the past when Christ is wanting to move us forward. Through what I’ve been studying the enemy has been pushing my heart, tugging and tearing into it by trying to keep my focus on what a “disappointment” I am.

Even though the enemy can talk smack to my face and taunt me all day long with regret it does not change who the Word of God says I am.

Romans clearly describes how we are sinners which is something the world itself is tired of hearing. However, it’s hard truth we are all sinners. Yet, immediately after that is made clear Romans says this in 3:24

“Yet God freely and graciously declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins”

I may be guilty by nature but because of my faith in Christ, God Himself declares me as righteous. I may have disobeyed God but God does not dwell on that and neither should I. I may not live perfectly but I am seen as righteous because that is who God says I am.

I am not a disappointment, failure, or mistake. I am a child of God, valued, loved, and saved by grace. So rather than focusing on what I wish I had done with my time or my heart I will focus on who God says I am because Christ did not die in vain.

“So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death”

Romans 8:1-2